How Unfortunate

I started this because I thought it would be a good way to express how I feel without having to hold back. Without worrying about what others would think or say. Without trying to show that I have this amazing super fun life. For some reason it still seems hard to write it all. 

Have you guys ever felt like one of your friends was about to be taken from you? This probably sounds like the silliest problem and I must sound immature and possibly stupid but I can't help how I feel. I think there are days where the simplest of things will set you off however today is not one of them. Today I feel like one of my close friends is getting taken away. I feel stupid for even feeling like this and at the same time helpless because there is nothing I can do to change it. 

I am not a possessive person but I'm also not good at sharing. Why do other girls have to make life so unhappy sometimes. I can't wait for the semester to be over, I need to go home. 

I don't mean to sound whinny  I just had to let it out. My life is pretty good and I am very blessed and grateful for all that I have. I just get a little discouraged by the bumps in this long road called life. 

I am not so sure how to start a blog so I will just begin by saying a little about myself. 

I am from Phoenix Arizona but currently live in Provo Utah were I go to school. I'm 19 and the oldest and only girl of four. I am usually outgoing, independent, and I try to be an overachiever. College has however has found a way to make me a bit more humble and the days of easy straight A's are long gone. 

I am a positive, a bit naive, and have a lot left to learn. 

Being away from home and coming to a school where 7o% of it's student body are from out of state has taught me a bit about people. To love and accept everyone and acknowledge that we all are different but equally special in Heavenly Father's eyes. 

It has almost been a year since I moved away from home and the change sure was drastic. It has been so incredibly fantastic to have had the opportunity to come to my wonderful university. I am done with my freshmen year of college in exactly one month and I am having mixed feelings about going back home.  

Life is pretty easy right now I took fewer credits this semester and am taking a cooking class that I enjoy very much. This was also the semester were I decided that I was not going to law school. For about the past nine years I thought that I wanted to be a lawyer. I am taking a pre-law class and have done everything in my power to make it my dream but I have changed and so have my dreams. My mom is not excited about this at all. It was her dream as much as it was mine that I would some day become a successful and distinguished attorney. 

I am considering business, but I think most of all I would love to be an elementary education major. I know that this comes with little prestige and little money but I think it's what I want. My mind seems to be a constant fight with what to do. I hope to figure out a major by the end of this semester, I hope it's something that I am going to love doing the rest of my life. 

Wish me luck